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i arrive in Mallaca on 30th January, balik Penang on 30th April....
Don ask, AKU RINDU GILA WEYH!!!!...
Happy as HEll to be back..
hell yeah!!

Happiest 15 minutes.

U came, U Saw, U Conquered my heart.

Thank You, i mean i Love You, i mean I like You, alot, I mean....
Words cant describe you. Youre everything is the closest which can describe you. : )

Cheh....

Benda apa pown, x puas hati, cakap one on one... dok cerita dkt org, kata tuh la ni lah... mcm aku xtaw ja....
talk one on one laa...

Grow up my friend. : )
you know who you are...

uttering words i rarely speak.

you may see i'm happy and cheerful. you may see i'm always there for anyone, but deep down, i too am only a human being, not perfect, not able to control everything... i can help people about their problem, and they thank me for it, but what about my problems? how do i get the solutions to my problem... huum...

i dont know how to express myself well... is that a flaw? i guess so... some things to me, its better for me to keep it to myself, most of the other things, i share it with my friends... so when my friends ask, ang ok x? of kos aku cakap ok.. i dont want to burden them with my sobb sad story.. about this or that...

thx mate for asking about my well being.... Once a Nadim, always a Nadim... Thanks..

Lisa......

It's been a while since we sat down and chat....
Dgr suara die dkt phone dah lama...
I miss you Lisa.... rindu gila zaman dulu, kacaw u, cucuk u, hahaha...
We were so close back in the days....
I knew i change the course of the relationship...
I've been busy, real busy... Ask my friends, my classmate.. I've been hearing my names in everyones mouth as soon as i walk pass them... hahaha.. i dont mind really, it keeps me sharp, cos i know they care about me... i noe u care about me lisa, and i too care bout you....
Now, u dah ada blog!!!
hahahaahah....
it' makes me closer to you sis!!
hahahaha...
Lisa oh Lisa... hahahhahaaa...

Real Love Phobia....

A moment of peace... finally i can update my blog.. in other words... say what i need to say...

Kesibukan sejak beberapa minggu ini telah menyedarkan aku tentang kehidupan seorang siswa...
Tanggungjawab yang diberi, aku terima dengan seadanya... Cuma aku seorang insan yang lemah, hanya mampu berusaha, dan berdoa... Tuhan sentiasa disisiku, namun aku jarang sekali meminta pertolongannya... Maafkan aku ya Allah..

Setiap detik saat buat kuhiba ku melarat, Dan semakin berat terasa terjerat, Mungkin ku tidak sekuat kusangka
Setiap rintik hujan buat keadaanku tenat, Dan segala kudrat kuperah keringat Daku dah penat melawan perasaan Dan memang benar sebenar-benarnya

During those busy days, i never seem to forget about you... I thought you were the one... it's a good thing though i've seen your true colors before i'm really intimate with you... oh, how you've change... i thought you were the one who knows about fairness. but, you turned out to be the one yg suka dgr sebelah pihak.... that was the only thing that i cant accept about you...
i thought you were the only one amongst all of the rest would understand the true nature of a "mouth story"...
huum....

Pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita
Kini tinggal kenangan
Ingin ku lupakan semua tentang dirimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu.

When the Heart Starts To Speak.

Take A good look at the Illustration above as it tells a lot about the man whose been writing on this blog...

The heart is only red in the middle , as the edge of the heart starts to fade into yellow, and soon the darkness.. the man's heart starts to reject love, and anything about love. He has experience things which leaves a big mark to him, until today. Heck, he even rejected the love of friends and family, because of high hope that the "true love" concept would make everything turned okay.

As the Heart Darkens, it spill dark Blood, instead of Red. It Means that the Blood turns black because it is never been given a new beat, a new will to live, a new pair of heart to beat with his as one. The heart spits out spots of blood, screaming help to dear God, so that He could find the heart a new friend to love and be loved.

Then, there's three arrows or more like a rail gun, blasting through the heart... The Heart has been shot down three times by few insignificant woman in his past, who doesn't really understand the man. They feel that the term woman, makes them the One to call it off, to cheat, or to make unlogical reason to take seperate path, as the man was never a cheater, never a player, never a liar, never a gonner, but only a lover. The man's heart broke 3 times already, not sure whether his heart could make it for the final journey.

There's only a few feathers left on the wings. and soon, it'll be all gone..
The wings symbolize the journey of the man, and from the looks of it, he's heart has had quite a journey, both far and unrestful, both pain and agony. Every single wing that the heart drops, was a sign of hardwork, commitment, tender loving, care, ALL turn to dust, what a waste.

Soon, the heart will make it's next flight, always hoping that the last stop, will be his last and final stop for a happily ever after ending.. Can the heart go all the way? or will it comes falling down from the sky, crashing into the harsh and cruel place we call the world? As the heart falls, would he be able to stand back up, or will it just give up??



Thats the story of my heart. I dont know if i'm able to fall back in "love".
I dont know if my heart is telling me, "she's the one", "she's attractive", she's staring at you", or "she' a friend"....
You may think that the man has someone, some one on his mind, you may say that the man looks fine, healthy and happy..
but deep down..... You'll only know the truth When The Hearts Starts To Speak.